My fingertips are holding onto the cracks in our foundations: July 2008

Yes, so as you can see i deleted all my posts. I started skimming through them and i realized, "who the fuck is this person?". I changed alot back from May through now. Back when i started school again in September i really got in touch with my art side but when i started smoking pot again everything got fucked up. I was smoking everyday and it was just ruling my life. So i eventually got a job at Torrid and thats when everything started looking up. I really cut back on smoking pot. I've been feeling pretty good, no mental breakdowns or anything since school stopped. Im really enjoying life. Yea, i'll party once in awhile but nothing major. I just got my hair done. I got it dyed bright red. It looks pretty good. I was in jersey the past few days and while i was there me and my cousin hit up a tattoo/piercing shop (Eternal Ink) and my cousin got her nose pierced and i got my septum jewelry changed. It looks alot cuter than that massive thing i had before. This one is a size smaller and its more petite. The balls on it are little gems, it's really adorable! I didn't stretch my ears any bigger. My style has changed alot. Im not dressing like a piece of shit anymore. No sweatpants, shitty sneakers, messed up hair..no no. Im embracing my feminine side and actually dressing like a girl! haha. I still have my little edge to me but not as extreme. Im SOOO excited because I'M GETTING TATTOOED BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS!!!! I have some ideas of what i want but my friend is convincing me not to get something big for my first. See it's my friends boyfriend whose doing it. He's had many years of expierience and it's legit. I mean jeeze, he's 30 years old. He better be good by now! Hah. Now ofcourse you now i wana start off with something massive cause thats just how i am lol. Half sleeve or beginning of a chest piece. But my friend is reccomending something smaller and in a different spot that wont hurt as much. But shes a pussy (she even admitted it) so i would hopefully be different!! Yes, i have the cash for this kind of stuff. I WORK! lol. Save up a few paychecks, im pretty sure i can get something decent! Anyways, here's some pictures of my summer so far!..